Miss No Pics · 0 hearts · 0 replies

In a way I like to feel desired, appreciated, catch attention, but then when it happens, when a man actually show that, I feel scared. There is a part of me that feels flattered but the other one is scared. This other part is the one that always wanted to be invisible, because being attractive for someone is a responsibility, something heavy for me. It is because I have to do something that won't change that person's mind about me. I already feel quite unattractive as a person, there is nothing interesting about me, so I know I will disappoint that person, will get rejected and loose that attention, appreciation. So I always do my best to hide, I don't want to make a person waste his time, get involved with a person who is so insecure, anxious, stupid and who overthink so incredibly much. I also don't want to get involved, give my heart to someone that after he will get to know me, he will leave and I will end up with a heartbreak. Does it make sense?