What fucked you up the most growing up?
Undiagnosed autism plus social anxiety. It still fucks me up even now, tbh.
When I was 6 I got scared at the dentist so they put me in a full body straitjacket and jacked my mouth open with a tool to take my tooth out and my whole life my mom told me it was all my fault and I deserved it because I was being a belligerent brat, I've hated her since that day and she could never make sense of why.. then later my stepdad started molesting me and of course he got away with it for five whole years because it was so easy for me to keep secrets from her.. after they broke up, I eventually did tell her about it and we got him arrested, but my mom became convinced that I blamed her directly for what he did even though I never said or did anything for her to believe that, it was her own guilt that she was projecting on me.. but I realized that this is what she needed to be true, me being molested was her being let off the hook, like THAT is why I am the way am, THAT is why I hated her so much, THAT is why I had behavior issues and panic attacks, nothing that she ever ac…
Learning about sex from a couple other boys on the swim team
Bullies had crushes on me and guys that actually claimed to like me just wanted to fuck.
That is so fucking true.
Nothing I refuse to let the problems of the past dictate my future. Accept and move on
Undiagnosed autism and bipolar disorder
Breathing
An estrogen secreting tumor on my testicles that made me develop a feminine puberty instead of a masculine one
Cancer and autism
The fact that only one of my brothers our of my entire family gave a shit about me. Dad left and started a new family, mom treated me like a sister she was competing with, one brother was SAing me, the other one is generally a dick, another brother never came around and then the other brother was just super distant. I am the youngest and only girl. No one had the same set of parents as I do. My mom would just leave me alone when I was 5 and I would roam the neighborhood.
Police raid and they snatched me outta the bed I was in because I was sleeping beside my dad and they arrested him right in front of me. Multiple guns pointed. I was 7. Then they realized they arrested the wrong family member,
Probably exploring strange turn ons online.
My husband technically lol put an eleven pound weight in my womb
Drugs
Well my parents fighting each other.
ADHD, still does
dad was deployed or not home a lot
Wanting to die
Maybe my first BF and how much of a perv he was but at the same time how persuasive he could be
Everything my mom did and let others do to me
The bras and panties in the sears catalog
Its either being abandoned by my father causing my obsession with proving my worth to people. Or Losing my virginity in a walk in wardrobe to my sister friend which has lead me down a road of depravity
Everything my father did.
Too much Internet too soon