I told him it’s hard for me to enjoy being eaten out bc I’m a giver by nature and receiving is challenging. Added that I’m willing to repattern, soften. What I wished he responded with was gentle curiosity, asking how he can make me more at ease with it, maybe ask if it’s always been that way, and what might help. And he just went on being horny. Went on about his own narrative, “I’d be staring up from your mound” 🤦🏻♀️ like yeah, cool, great, I understand that’s how the positionality works.. It’s such a small thing really but it makes me feel unimportant and bit erased. I don’t know why these things are so fucking hard for men when they’re automatic for me when I dealing with anyone I care about. My instinct is aleays “hey, sit to me you fascinating being, tell me more, I’ve got you” He continued to try to sext me and I’ve left him on delivered.
