purple_prejudice · 0 hearts · 1 reply

I have a crush on this girl. I’m a lesbian and she has a gf (she’s bi). We’ve been classmates from 6th to 7th grade and divided in 8th. In 7th grade she used to moan in my ears and openly tell me that she would marry me in front of other pick me girls. Once she asked me how she would look like with neck tattoos (again in 7th) I said— “Honestly? Smash.” She giggled and said “Say that again?” I smiled and said “I said you’d look smash” she giggled again and said “Wanna date?” My stupid ass panicked and laughed. She quickly said “It’s mutual okay?” I nodded while I continued laughing. Thing is. I didn’t like that look on her face then and I don’t like it now too. Now looking back I regret it sm. I could’ve had the chance to date her. But before I realised my feelings it was already too late. She has a gf…and she’s gonna lose her v-card in a month. There’s a trip from school and she asked me to be her roommate knowing I’d be fine with getting kicked out for 30 mins to leave the two of them alone. Ofc I happily said yes. I thought abt that for the next 3 days. Never left my head. I’m gonna be in the lookout and be helping my crush literally have sex with her gf. Just thought I’d vent abt this