I wish i had big boobs.. Being flat sucks so much. From the misgendering to the dysphoria to the self loathing. It sucks. Plus I can't wear the sexy clothes i want.
I'm sorry ur struggling :( I bet u get all of the "but small boobs are perfect too" and "I love flat chests so much" comments and I can imagine that feels really invalidating. I wish I could do more for u, but all I can do is remind u that you are worthy of love and very desirable just the way you are, even when it doesn't feel that way. and I'm certain there are retailers that deal in sexy clothes catered specifically to your body type - and if they're too expensive, tailors are much cheaper. you're worth the effort to have some clothes that make u feel sexy, and I hope it's a short journey to find some <3
Save up some money and get a boob job.